pliz come over barista

i hardly slept last night,i thought of YOU.(((sorry huh))) i'm alternately miserable heartbroken cynical disillusioned,apathtic,resentful then miserable again despairing listless then my inexorable temperament reasserts itself!!! all the rest is temporarily swept aside.

today i cant write,????????? I JUST sit staring dully out all over CCD tables<<<<<((((this is my fourth day)))))))))

i'm in absolute despair,YOU dont seem to have grasped anything either you have never got mails or you deliberatly choose to IGNORE them>>>>>which it it???????????

across my life only one word will be written<<<WASTE love WASTE of talentwat could be worse or more despairing.

i'm no nearer any sort of resolution. i try in vain to drive this tyrannous all absorbing LOVE from my heart.but it returns undaounted,imperishable,to rage and strom through me like the mind through a roofless house.

pliz come over barista.i'm missing you.